Tonight it’s freezing
Just as my heart is
When it gets to nights like these
I think about your smile
I think about the talks we had
The things you said to me
The way you made me feel
It was unlike anything in this world
I felt a sense of comfort
To know something was mine
But something relied on so heavily
Just enough that I could not keep
They say you can never love too much
But I believe that you can
To love to the point
That you need that person
More than you need yourself
You lose yourself
And then to lose the one thing
You most relied on
You lose what you saw as your every breath
What do you do when you lose your purpose?
You find another purpose
Only this road you walk
You walk with bruises and scars
Deeper than a dagger could ever descend to
Travelling along with fear
You learn to rely on other things
Things that don’t live or breathe
Just to keep yourself sane
I may carry on every day
Until my last breath is reached
But I don’t know
If I would rather be happily dead
Or miserably awake
